A Message for Me

Before Aaron deployed, he left me a little gift on our computer desktop. I watched it tonight. He had made me a little video message of him talking to me. (Sorry not telling you what he says!) I have tried not to watch the video too much because it makes me sad. I hate that I can hear him and see him yet not be able to snuggle up into his arms. Although it does tug my heartstrings I love that he did this for me! (He also left me some songs on the desktop to listen to when I feel down. I told you he was great!) We say 'I love you!' all the time in e-mails and over the phone but it is so nice to see the words roll off his lips. And they are such nice lips!

I can't wait until I hear it in person, staring into his eyes that are letting me know everything is going to be alright. I like to think I am a fairly strong women. And even though I knew marrying Aaron that deployments were part of the deal, it certainly isn't always easy. I have my nights where I crawl into bed and have a good cry because I miss my best friend terribly. I am excited for the day when I can feel his arms around me strong yet gentle, and know that for the first time in months I am whole again and that the tears are happy tears!

I am happy to say that time will come NEXT MONTH! I know! I am so stoked I can't even express it in words. I don't know exactly when and I know the date will probably change about 15 times before I finally get to attend the Welcome Home ceremony but I don't care. I can't wait to see his handsome face. I not only see the light at the end of the tunnel, I can feel the warmth from it.

Only during deployments do I wish time away at alarming rates! I know you are not supposed to wish your life away but my life is not complete without Aaron with me anyway, so I am hoping I get a free pass on that one. So with that said, I wish time would fly by until I was in my husbands arms again and listening to him tell me he loves me!