Getting Bigger and Stronger

Baby P. at 13 weeks

The little bugger would barely sit still for a picture. It was amazing to watch he/she move around so much! Great appointment today at the high risk doctor. I think I am going to like going there because it will be often. I will get to see my baby more than most. I think it will be very reassuring.

Thoughts on being preggos...(so far)

Being pregnant isn't at all what I thought. I feel tired but that is about it. I don't feel nauseous or the need to throw up. I am more than grateful that this is the case! I think God gave me a break on this one! Because if I were to get sick I would have to go to the hospital and get my medicines through an IV. Not fun. But I need my medicines, so I really wouldn't have any other choice.

I am grateful that I don't feel the normal pains of pregnancy, yet I feel jipped somehow. Is that crazy? I don't want to get fat but I am excited for something, anything to happen or to change in me. We have been to the doctor twice and have heard the heartbeat. I LOVE THIS! It reassures me that everything is indeed alright. But then I leave the doctor and feel like plain old Jackie again.

How did some of you moms feel?

Am I excited? Absolutely. But I feel most days like it isn't real. And that I will wake up and someone will have played a horrible joke on me. I am looking forward to the day when I feel 'connected' to the baby and to actually feel like an expectant mother.

I hope saying these things don't make me seem like a horrible person! I promise I am more than over the moon that we are having a baby! It just isn't at all like I had expected to feel.

One bonus: I got the boobs I always wanted! :)

Late Night Sunsets Are Back!

10:04 PM last night!